New year, new me, right? People are always talking about starting fresh and make all these resolutions. In the past I've always thought it was kinda a joke. I mean, lets be serious..how many people actually keep their resolutions? Sure, its easy for a week or two, maybe even a month or two. But then most fall back into their old habits. Because it's what they know, it's who they are. Well this year, I've decided to do just that. I've decided to not only find out who I am and find out what it is that I truly know, but I have also decided to do things for myself and my son. Sounds selfish, right? I'm sure you thought so until you read "and my son". Sure, I've been called selfish a time or two but when it comes to not material things, is that really a bad thing? I'm talking about taking the time to find out who I am and what I can do, I'm talking about focusing on the POSITIVE relationships that I have with close friends and family, I'm talking about becoming a better person not only for myself but for my one true love, (well my one true love that will always be there no matter what..but we'll get into that another time..maybe) my son. I have always felt like I've spent my life living for someone else. Whether it was for a guy, a job, my parents..doesn't matter, but never really for myself; although sometimes it may not have seemed that way. I have always had a great support system, even through all of the mistakes and bad decisions on my part. I have always cared way too much about what people think of me, what they will say, what they will believe. It really hasn't gotten me very far. And now, I guess I just don't really care. If everyone lived their lives that way, which I'm sure a lot of people do, where would they be? How far would they get? We grow up listening to each and every word our parents say, may stray here and there and test the waters, but for the most part most of us are guided by our parents. I mean, its a great thing. They have more experience, more knowledge, our best interests at heart. But at what point are we really ready to do our own thing? to live our lives the way that we want?
I am ready now, this year, 2015, to start doing things that will make me happy and help me grow. Now being a single stay at home mother that isn't really easy. We can't really go for a promotion at our job. But we can focus on being healthier inside and out, focus on relationships, maybe some schooling, and if we are lucky maybe some money saving. I know one thing that has to go for sure though and that's negativity. I can't deal with that anymore. of course there will always be some here and there, but anything or anyone toxic has got to go. Some people let is consume them and we all know misery loves company. Not me. I won't let it. I've always prided myself on being a happy (for the most part), positive, always smiling type of girl. These past few years have taken a toll on me and its been hard to be that girl, but I need to be. I need to figure out how to be, again.
So, I am excited to get this year started! Excited to get this blog started! I'll definitely cover the past a bit because lets be serious, the past is what got us all where we are, right? But I'm looking forward to bringing you all on this years journey with me!
*Don't let anyone take your smile away*
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